I lost it all

I Lost It All This blog is about honest descussions. Well here is an honest discussion. I lost everything I ever wanted and hoped for. All because of online pornography. I became blind to what I was viewing. I played a game relying on the anonymity of the internet. Why did I do it? That's the million dollar question. On September 30, 2010, around 7:30 am, II hugged my ten year old daughter goodby as I dropped her off at her school bus stop for what became the last time. “Dad, well you pick me up later?“ she asked- “Sure thing sweet pea” I replyed. Well less than 60 minutes later that all changed. Twenty minutes after I dropped off my daughter, I arrived at my work as a captain of a private yacht on the west coast of Florida. On the way to the boat, I had talked with the owner confirming the go ahead to redo the teak deck with an area contractor, a $20,000 expense. I arrived on the boat at the city marina, and went on board. It wasn't long before I had the 'fishing' urge and fi[ fired Ln) my lap top computer. The docks were busy. This was a Thursday and boats were moving around preparing for a small boat show to be held over the weekendm.As my computer was booting up, I went out on the docks with 23 cup of coffee, talkflng to my friends moving boats around. Fifteen minutes later I was back on board. From the portholes in my cabin, I noticed a boat pulling into the slip next to me. It was an open center counsel boat with about seven men and women on board. They looked a little out of place so I went back up to the salon. When I got to the salon, one of the men came aboard without permission, which was very strange. I opened the sliding door to the back deck and he held out a badge, "FBI, do you know why I am here?” I became numb and weak in the legs. My good life, wife, children, job, home and mostly my respect, tossed away because of my own stupidity. I was mostly attracted to the young women of the Eastern European sites where the girls spoke broken english- I only know this from little snippets of video somehow found online. For me, viewing these ‘forbidden’ bits of video clips, gave me a ‘high’ and then I was off to the races looking for more. worming" my way around. the net. Role playing