Intermediate care facility or ICF

1 5-7-20 Re: Intermediate Care Facility or ICF While it has been a while since I've been to what the State of California and it's employ call a Crisis Bed or haven't. Not sleeping enough according to the good doctor's or the observing staff is a side buster of a way to end up butt naked in a cold cell with only a moveing blanket and a smok to wear for a dress as the air condisioner blow's cold air through out the night as I sit and write far away from my own family that have been working playing and enjoying life on a daily basis for all these year's me I'm content; I was finally able to catch up on all that sleep the psychologist's have been telling me I'm missing out on I dont think its the sleep I think it's my natural disposition they got it all wrong for "the record" by the way, wonderful album by "Fear" one of my all time favorite punk band's singer Lee Ving whom I last heard was singin some country out in Austin Texas somewhere its like Im getting old, yet when I get to be in front of some one these day's I want to have a full on conversation yet time is so valuable to those who still have that experience we as prisoner's been off the clock so time is almost at a stand still. If you give up all hope, you are already condemned I know my own self and I hate it when 2) other's try to tell me how to live and what I suffer from funny it's like the day the captain come's to visit a unit all the porter's get told to hit the tier to let everyone know to take down there window cover's or else the c/o's will hit their cell's and search. Fair enough little shit that's just a small example how the staff favor some. Almost every body has a hustle so you have to fit in the sceen of thing's or your out my way of doing thing's are not in favor of the drug trade, yet after many many year's have being clean & sober I still think Im a addict and to be truthful coffee is my down fall as a old cat I can drink mudd all day and late in to the night then hit the sack having been raized around early rizer's when I sleep I sleep when Im awake I get up! end of story! The day's of fast living many year's behind me I some time's feel like Im in high school not in prison! Thats another thing I had been working on getting out of the work assignment the concular and staff argued me to school fucking G.E.O. program hell I graduated 36 year's ago with a early exit professence exam I told the teacher and gave her all the info to unassign me bitch write's me a 115. I seen the battle line draw so I wrote to the Education Dept in the last prison where only 36 years in the State I had to get a hold of my school and get the records for 3) this State Agency C.D.C.R didnt have my diploma on file nor did it come with my file from M.C.S.P to Donavan. Pennywise" is all I said this state will spend the tax payer's money like it's going out of style I dont have time to wipe asse's around here too, nor to call a red tape foul up like the dept. This place and what is left of the info struction is not a simple fix but dont compound the issue's with mismanagement and lack of accountability you see I was watching every one in court the day's of my pre trial when the bitch got on the stand and told her lie's there were two c/o's they had to be family; since I have told the attorney at the time my attorney's were Rudy Gullione's and the Public Defender Mr. Henderson laughed and said where is the case here this isnt even a case so 21 year's for what ask Rudy our P.O.T.U.S. went on trial and was impeached for what? I tell you that as a piecemaker and a man of God. It's a delusion cast by a few in the upper rank's I wrote a paper on it for the court yet they wished to take the easy way and not call butt one witness they, state's witness list was long my civil & constitutional right to speak have been ripped from me I finally re leased some documents last month after my sitting on many year's of finger pointing we see the state of corruption to which this system is in, and unless we as a community forget about our own self and become selfless, a doer that will 4) stand even through the worse of time's and laugh misery in the face putting aside those trail's and to let time pass healing those wounds inflicked by the enemie's of God and our Great Nation shit I still tell my family this country is the greatest you now can get a sex charge and the state will buy it for you I just told my daughter in a open letter telling her this is the only state you can kill your cellie and get put on single cell status I had a neighbor get madd at me back in Febuary when I had only been here a few weeks cause my new cellie who just came from the hospital for suicide watch O.D.ed after dinner and was dead as a door nobe asshole I guess got hold of some heroin the neighbor came and asked me about his rig? Shit I dont know nothing about that line of drug use and if your into the needle it better be a tattoo one, that is all I will say about that and addiction down close to T.J. shit, this move to the State Hospital was only for my beifit now the psychologist is trying to wake me up shit I thought they wanted me to sleep? I wish someone had a right mind I guess sleeping 23 hours a day was to much for them. Safe sleep here I know my cell door isnt going to just open up here and someone having a bad day or even given a paper of heroin to kill me or kick my ass is going to run up into my cell. When ever the tower c/o pops my door I'm alway's prepared standing in my door jam. 5 That simple not a tough guy just causeous self preservation is key to the triade of life or trinity. 1 x 1 x 1 = 1 not 3. If you are not religious then more like a trinity of Life like time, space & matter. They also end with the same result you can take up space in this world and it won't matter to anyone what you do cause in time only one thing remain's time and no one know's when our time here on earth will end so you better make it matter as much as you can it sicken's me to see how this State spend's million's no billion's to save people who don't even want to be here. All the millions of ignorant people who dont want to be here should just go I love my life. If I see just one man leave here and never come back then Ive done my job! you know the end result is my pat on my own back cause I had a hand in that release just talking about one man; jesus the story never get's old you know why cause until you live in the spirit of the Almighty and Faith is your tool along with prayer knowing Matthew 21:22 the outcome all this so called be good society shit goe's out the window I see more walking dead daily everywhere I go it's funny to me sorry you gotta laugh like a bad Jesse Ventura movie where he put's on the sunglasse's and see's all the evil alien's later he's writing conspireting book's on our government we'll it don't take a theat of a nuke to discipline a rouge nation 6) just a few brave dedicated men when awake, can cause a very sever disruption in the way thing's are like I percieve a tech just lost my place in this writing cause the good doctor lady just interrupted my letter writing with here comes the twenty question's like I told her nothing's changed same old me, pill's, no music, no pussy, just, me and my study and no one to talk to just when I get around to warming up away from the written word she has to go. you know they dont have time in the day to see everyone in crisis I believe like the c/o in Lancaster once put it you be the inmate Ill be the prison guard so if your gonna call me a inmate and a O.G. then I'm gonna act as nice as you keep me and as mean as you make me. every one has a joke these day's thats not funny you cant even say Jew, Kike, Nigger, Spade, Spic, white boy, cracker just to say a few with out feeling's attached to them and being called a name in return! W.T.F.? If I keep my mouth shut the wave of hate washe's over me and time move's along if I keep up all the points of fact I sound like them a broken recorder Buddha was famous for saying "more than a thousand word's wasted than one word that bring's peace, yet, the Bible in Ecclesiastes say's their is a time for war and a time for peace you will note: in the 8 verse's in chapter 3 all the good at any time come's first yet verse 8 states war 7 must come before peace the great General Patton once said "Educated bullet's out way untudored courage everytime so as to say I descurn intelligence and health a sound mind as well as physical strenght are key to yet another trinity physical, mental, spiritual with out these 3 in ballance you will be consitured crazy, insane, mentally ill, sick to which their is no known cure theirs no crazy pill just like there is no happy one. the end result is Alcamiy Big Pharma turning billion's from people with symptoms of madness into gold chemical's for cash the Black Market feed's billions daily and just as I have written in length about how the seences of turning chemical's into pure metal's work's like gold and silver it is this simple a good chemist can take some chemical's mixed sold by way of Big Pharma stock in company sold equal's money, money used to mint gold and other pure metal's, equal's the great wizard's of our time to make Alcamey work it's just a compisition, you cant just make something some one else invented right? So if your playing God, he will give you enough rope just enough to hang your self for a little while that is why I dont carry gun's or knife anymore I am to quick to use them like the Supreme Court said a few year's ago to the police shot first people still dont understand as I write almost out of paper and my pen filler out of ink I have come to the point in life that integrity is more important then, respect from anyone cause the 8) good book says in Acts Chapter 10 literally God don't have respect for you or me, our live's are our's we need to do what his plan was for us to have respect and worship him, I know I'm not gonna white wash any thing it's fucking tough to behave in a world gone mad just yesterday I recieved a package from family in the same respect I watched a young man arguing with a nurse over shoelace's in his tennis shoe's and make a arguement over a set rule and practice I'm happy just to have got a new pair of scketer's tennis shoes after almost 5 year's the lost package, that's why I feel like a high school kid around here as I was coming from Mule Creek to prison in Donovan in R&R on my layover I was put in a cage next to a white kid who, what, & whered me when I stopped him in his tract's and told him Im a fucking combat Marine I showed him my tattoo of Adolph Hitler and said you got one of these there with all your main line who's, who bullshit, he say's well we have rule's yea I know right, that's why your in a cage and I'm in a cage cause of rule's. Where's my 10% I get no help from my so called own people and the shot caller's can't keep there own men in a line cause there all on the needle I don't fuck you all up cause you call came here to be B M O C 's big men on campus shit my mother don't tell me how to live some white boy and his dope fiend buddy and their prison rule's I doubt will get me to comply eighter. Since they dont need me for there prison gang they go back to talking about drugs