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4-26-20 PO Box 409020 Ione CA 95640 Barnicles Something's up with life, especially when you notice it's robbing you blind. Some people commit spiritual suicide while others stop believing in God's existence in their life altogether, but live devilishly. I'm amazed to know that everything I've ever heard about myths, religion, and me tell myself is true on some level. And to think I didn't believe it in the first place is equally amazing. It wasn't until I came to relize I started to experience the supernatural, that I began to believe in God. At the same time I began to believe in God I also became to be challenged with that belief. And although I constantly lived the supernatural, only very few times did I feel it. I felt unrealisticly innocent in comparason to others or in unimaginable danger during those times. The unrealisticness made a split personality that slowly possessed my life experience and in a sense possessed me for unknown reason. I felt like my soul was sold to the devil without my permission because I was robbed of the ability to genuinly enjoy life's pleasures. I no longer felt authentic, I knew something was up with my identity behind my hallucinations. And although I still dont know how to stop it completely, I do know Im not just crazy. Its really something you need to see for yourself to believe it but that part of everything you heard about conspiracies and religion appear unrealisticly true. I sometimes think I feel this way to scare me into doing things or saying things to sabotage my reputation. In conclusion, I understand I have become an outlier on a statistical scale. I am no longer in control of my feelings or experience as much as I used to be, but I am now able to apraise things through a more divine scope. So, I now try to make sense of it all. --[illegible]
