Barrell of funky’s

Mack-Lemdon, Mr. L.

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7/2/18 Barrel of Funky's Being raped repeatedly as a young child is a very horrible experience and it will tear the mind to pieces if you fail to deal with it. I am a victim of rape, however, out of shame and embarrassment, I never told anyone. Instead, I self-medicated. In other words, I became a drug addict. Drugs took me for a real ride. They were a "killer in a thriller". 1987-1988 - brain surgery-- mentally ill w/ seizures 1988-1992 - prison 1992-1994 - drugs---->left for dead 1995-1998 prison---->shot-up - drug related 2001-2004 prison drug-related 2007-2009 prison drug-related 2012-2015 prison 2016-pres. prison---->nearly killed All drug related. No one can say that I do not know about the drug and prison life. Today, I am serving yet another sentence within the Michigan Department of Corrections (MDOC). This time it is only costing the tax payers $232,854.00. I have been mentally ill for more than 30 years and have never really understood any of it. I take medication, then stop, then think I'm okay, then drugs, then prison. This is my cycle. I have never received intense mental health treatment, because like a drug addict, which I was, I did not want to admit I had a problem and I definately was not telling anyone about the rape, especially a prisoner or prison staff. For some reason, the "People of the State of Michigan" keep sending me to prison as though if the prison system can resolve my mental illnesses. However, the MDOC is not, nor has it ever been a mental health agency, though they have mental health staff available. Further, my mental problems are much deeper than the MDOC. The MDOC are surface people. Presently, I am in a "prison" called "RTP" (Residential Treatment Program) for the mentally ill. In reality, it is no more than a regular housing unit, like all other prison housing units, but has a few minor differences. For instance, mental health staff darts in and out between 8:00am and 4:00pm. The unit has its own med line and there are more women than men. There are many reasons, besides mental illnesses, why people (prisoners) are in RTP, therefore, I would never, ever, ever, ever, tell anyone my problems. Numerous people are in RTP for: A. Protection B. The drugs--this is big C. The women D. To take advantage of others E. The small perks F. The D-47 opportunity G. Because they are actually-usually sick People like me, who show [a?] outer that's much different from [a's?] inner will not get the help we need. Then there are the "RTP" zombies and others with strange behavior. These type do not care one way or the other because they are too medicated to care. Amazingly, I do not know how this program got funded. Maybe because Michigan closed the real mental health facilities and a big bright light came on where somebody said "Send the mentally ill to prison, we'll give 'em treatment", but in the very fine print it reads "At tax payers expense", with a smiley face. Between you and me, if somebody straps some balls on and investigated the MDOC like they did Donald Trump, Kwame Kilpatrick, Richard Nixon, Russia, Bill Cosby, and a host of others, they just might discover something. Be careful, there may be a lot of high powered people eating this pie. Facts and My Opinion

Author: Mack-Lemdon, Mr. L.

Author Location: Michigan

Date: July 2, 2018

Genre: Essay

Extent: 3 pages

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