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Calling it a night As I wind down and get ready to sleep a lot goes on in my head my wife wants to try to make us work alone this means without the other women and I believe she deserves it but how can I offer that alone when I'm scared this time might not be what she can take then I will be alone. Yea I have fears of being alone but I will make something happen no matter what if you ask me, I love [redacted] with all my heart I pray she really means what she says with her heart and voice cause its not gonna be eazy at all if you ask me. Any way this is my call it a night writing sleep may not come quick but I just want all this to be out in the open so I can get on with my life. [redacted] acts as if she hates me all I did for her I can't imagine her being serious about how she feels about me. I miss my kids I wish I had a option to be in little man life I hate that [redacted] and [redacted] robbed me of that. To be honest it all went south with [redacted] omg how I can destroy my life I don't know what I was thinking buy that time in my life makes me think alot about the truth did god really want this to happen to me? And if he did what does he have in store for me in the future?
