Chronicles of September

Chronicles of September Frederick Mason #55487—O56 USP Tucson, PO Box 24550 Tucson, Arizona 85734 Sept. 7th, 2014: 9am as they call an early Yard Recall. The rain got pretty heavy, and a lot of guys were caught outside in the rain. I'm glad I stayed inside, and because of that, talked a bit with Carlo, whom I just bought a box of Tide from. He's got an allergic reaction to it, and needed to sell it. So I bought the box, only having a little used, for a book— $5.00 in stamps. A It's ok, I had to dip into my "Tino savings account" to get it. The way I figure it, I was gonna buy him detergent anyway; why not buy Tide for him? I gotta wait until Abe gets back... as they call Northside quarters move, so it's 9am. ‘-u I gotta wait for Abe to get back, so I can get the detergent, since it's locked in his locker. So, what now? I don't have much to do. I'm not motivated to do any Bible studies, because my faith has been stretched thin. Times like this, and on cloudy days, I wish I was home playing Final Fantasy, or Shining Force, or Phantasy Star, or Dragonv Warrior, or Might & Magic, or Elder Scrolls... and the listi goes on and on. What motivates me now? It was tough getting up, trying to find a reason to get up. What can I do today that gives me hope? What can I look forward to? All I could think of was getting to the library to watch, "Visions of Greece" in the library, but even that didn't happen. So what's left to look forward to...nothing... As Carlo just delivered the box of Tide to me. So now I'll tuck it in the back in my locker, and store it away. Now, what do I need to get for Tino? If I can get a couple more bags of coffee, then work on a little more hygiene, he'll be set. I'll get some deodorant, Irish Spring, and toothpaste. If I can do that, I'll work on other items for him. I want the kid to know that there are people that care about him. I don't want him to think he's been forgotten. Yet, isn't this how we see God? ‘Ar .2 Why do people miss on their prayers? It's easy to find an escape clause when WE fail. There's always a reason why we can't receive. But is that fair to us? It's like one lady said on my blog years ago, "It's like God sets the bar, and when you're barely able to reach it, He raises it to a point you can't possibly reach". It's like God changes the rules so we can fail, and He maintains His sovereignty. I don't understand it, and it's very difficult to believe in God, as Oscar comes in, telling me that Hansen called Abe back there. Might be for team, not sure. I don't think it's about the Honor Program. Not that we don't want an Honor Dorm— we just think it's garbage that a man like Hansen, who could care less about us, could possibly insinuate that HE has the integrity and credentials to determine the characteristics for an Honor Program. ‘:,.,_. -.§&._ ‘~""v’J\;.!A“_“)'_‘§ ‘E’ -V ) .~ , .4 ~ ,)5:.-.) ‘E I "1 g . [3 > M 2 ., f,‘ /-,A:‘“?<,,‘:, 2’ \.uz=; W» A H‘ W =“%-"‘”“<~'r»M'”‘e gm,-N /\[,s,.) / é ! g ~ .« 50 :3, §'~ “<32 1; r»,:s,,:é.2, Mwi. M.) E » 1»; (M I ' pi 6N6"f‘J\Hu’ Wfigk, C*‘u’\g,.\, l’Vle‘.=.,1!Z‘§,i !+' v’\ EH!‘-{P )3“ KM. T» q.M;1‘e>m‘:r "N3 :1’; M h?€€’"\\”<- 99’? ~ “"“'H"‘ "‘"‘“A 5”“ “\tn,\\cPv 5”“"”€« W 5°”) Ckrr<>§fhc~5‘