American Prison Writing Archive
"civilian rehabilitation letter"
Well, I am indeed a federal prisoner with a 262 month sentence. I have served 5 years already. Recently, when I called home, a new boyfriend to my daughter's mother answered and advised me they would no longer visit me, and not to call.
Certainly, I would rather be in my family's lives, raising my daughter, than in prison, She is 4 years old. I was able to be added to the birth certificate while in prison, which required a release of paternity for child support purposes. The government had a DNA sample cheek swab from me when I was arrested to compare to. I met my girlfriend and within 3 weeks, she was pregnant. After 5 months, I was arrested. 4 months later, she had our daughter while I was in the county jail, having plead, and awaiting sentencing. Thankfully, I was able to see my daughter once a year for the first 3 years of her life. Hopefully, I can attend her high school graduation, but this would most likely be a probation violation, and not be possible. There's always the reception, if she's amenable. My relationship with many of my relatives are strained. My twin sister and (older) brother have distanced themselves, and I only call them on Christmas. I understand my perpetual downfall since young adulthood has been hard to handle, and there comes a point when those bridges are pretty much burned for good. We never think of the sorrow and disappointment we cause others when we destroy our own hopes and dreams, along with the ones they had for us. My parents and and older sister visit me annually, and send mail, cards, and books. The patsied prisoner doesn't realize, ahead of time, that largely all citizen activity and movement is monitored and recorded (for use against them at a later date) by the NSA (National Security Agency), under the guise of law initiatives and national security interests. The corrections corporation has a vested interest in locking up the citizenry for extended periods of time; it is their business. "The bigger the bust, the bigger the boost". The average person does not realize crimes that affect the wires or interstate commerce/manufacturing, such as guns, computers (web/email/fraud/drug transportation, etc) are federal crimes and result in steep sentences. 2nd degree murder in the state system might yield, for example, 143 months. Whereas, trading emailed photos of minor nudists results in 240 months or more (even with no dead body). Exploitation production is punishable by upwards of between 30 and 60 years. I am interested to know how pre-emptive rehabilitation might ever be possible, since by the time a criminal is arrested, it's too late. At this point, a long federal sentence is unavoidable. Many criminals would also avoid counseling, prompted by a spouse who has attempted to intervene upon the discovery of suspicious activity, for fear of the counselors legal obligation to report crimes mentioned during any given sessions. My sisters will get an apartment for me in the city I "fell" out of prior to my release, otherwise known as the land of throw-away souls.
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