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NO TITLE Come Holy Spirit, I need you to help me. Wrote this for your purpose and Glory. To start off, I have been incarcerated now 7 years in FMWCC, Las Vegas, NV. This is my 1st time in a Correctional Center which it has been called to rehabilitate women from bad behavior till Ms. McClure died. Now its a place of control issue in my opinion. Since I've been in here, I've seen a lot of changes. I am considered a "child case" due to the attorneys, DA, Judges, were bias in 2012. Which that is a story. So because the women in here believe what courts, PS1, lies: they will stereotype and categories other. So I'm not real liked. See, I knew when I came due to my attorney, DA, Judge already knew what they were going to do. I decided to not fight the lies that they claimed my daughter said about me and didn't want to put her through anymore trauma since Arizona legal System was not taking her out of the real abuser - her alcoholic father - Arizona kept putting her back into his care even though I've been attempting to show his abuse... go figure... Nevada State Legal System has laws that are backwards and so it created me to get a 10-life Alford plea to protect my daughter... go figure. As I said before, I knew what would happen and prepared myself. I even choose not to go to Gpod which is what the women calls the "crazy" pod... I also chose not to be on medication for one, I react to pills differently and I can't take them. I will admit my choice of medicine is marijuana, yes, I'm a pot head. (LOL). I chose to live in general population even though I am labeled. I have been kicked in the face, and when she finished, I asked her, " if she was done," then told her Jesus loved her. I get called names which honestly don't bother me for one, they don't know the truth and two, I've been called names since I've been born sooo.... A lot of women feel distrusted, ill, can't stand my sight or presence so again I can't take it personal for God loves me and created me for his purpose and glory and He knows my heart. For some reason, a lot of the women here really believe that they are better and feel that they are not like me. I've seen a lot of women here that do "dish" me, hate me, do drugs, fraud, murder and feel that they don't (1) harm families (2) harm their kids (3) will go back and do it again. Honestly, what people believe I've supposedly done to my child they are not in that category yet. I am going to make a very bold statement: "when you are so drugged up and nodding off and our for hours what have you done with your kids? Is someone watching them? And do you really believe that the someone watching will not be harming your child? You are so able to make great decisions while you are nodding off with your child right? Does your child wonder what you are doing? Do they walk in on you? You really believe you are not harming anyone, families while you steal credit cards, fraud, etc. While you are getting your desires or supported you kids for you believe God will understand the wrong for the right? I get it, we have all sinned and come short of the glory of God. I believe the reason that there is so many incarcerated over 2 million is because instead of helping people to not harm their kids, wife, other is because you want money, greed, power to keep something open. Yes I get that there are some people that do belong in prison yet a lot are being incarcerated due to Attorneys are overworked, lazy, or believe that you are guilty because they want to get it over with, so a lot of innocent people are (1) being coerced to say "guilty" (2) being trumped up with charges that are false. This is a scheme I believe to destroy families and people. For I guarantee you that most of the cops, DA's, Detectives, family services have some problems: alcoholism, sexual abuse, domestic abuse, sexual harassment in offices, fraud (money schemes) etc. Yet I also believe this takes the eyes, problem off of them and puts it on others to cover up their lives. Now our prisons are overflowed because the legal system needs to be changed. My first hand experience of being incarcerated these 7 years has shown me a lot. Favoritism inmate, don't like a person at the workplace - set them up to get terminated, don't like her as a cell mate - created it to make it look like she is bullying you, hitting you, manipulating it to make her the bad cellie and get moved or what I am experiencing right now. I had to say that I was threatening my cellie to get our of her lies, arguments creating it to look like I was disrespectful and couldn't live as a human being. So I am now living what the warden calls Unit 7 - level 3 - which originally it was created for people in the "hole" disciplinary place to come here U7 to transcend to U1 -level 2. Now it is a place for anyone that basically gets a major even generals so now we can get into trouble for having to problem solve how to not get into trouble. I am sure this didn't make sense sooo... Because I couldn't handle and kept attempting to not allow my bunkie to get to me - which each time she did create an issue it was escalating. I didn't want to be in the room with her no more and you can't PG-up for basically, you will come right back in the same cell in 24 hours. Can't have a convenient bed move for its now being misused for girlfriends so I had to get a MJ2S threatening or MJ57 - refusing going in room - so I got into trouble to get our of trouble. Another is "diluted testing" or you can't pee is now causing a lot to spend time in the hole, unit 7, when there is proof that the second test was clean, no drugs, so you now get into trouble for drinking too much water. Cant go and have outside help to prove your innocence so now you will be put into U7 because you didn't let the prison do their job. (got outside help) (not let them do it). (LOL) I have seen a lot of stuff since 2012 - how about I said favoritism? Certain inmates get to get out of trouble when they do favors for certain officers or become snitches. They get treated better. Even certain staff members will do stuff with inmates to get their jollies off and someone gets blamed for something they didn't do to get them out of the work places because they walked in on them. Some even spend money and bring them in prison to give to their person ... go figure. I've seen officers treat inmates as an animal if they don't like them and get them fired, put into U7, write them up for silly stuff. Randomly search them and take silly stuff and say it is not allowed or something to get them in trouble. Since this place brought in the PERA now women can say that someone "PERA" them or was sexually bothering them and get them into the hole for days. I believe they need to start helping people in addictions with real rehab, drug classes, and places instead of prison. This place doesn't help one. It keeps them in criminal minds to survive in here for their hungry, don't have ways to get what they need so they steal, create ways to get what they need and even harm someone if that is what it takes. I believe we need to get back to our constitution and "common laws" and not make up laws just because. Also now because someone created a static about situation like lying, if you stutter. When someone stutters because too much going through their head and attempting to answer them. Statics supposedly says now if your teeth are bad - you are a meth head. In reality someone has had bad teeth since childhood. Static says "your parent abused you sexually most likely you will be like your parent. Doesn't anybody really care anymore? Where is God anymore? Why have we believed lies, humanism, secularism, instead of God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit. I really believe we, the nation, needs to repent of our ways and come back to the True God and be one nation under god. In God we trust instead of where we are at. Church we need to help/serve/love one another even prisoners. We need to be building up one another, edifying, encouraging, comforting each other in our lives then God will heal us. Since I've been in FMUCC I have committed totally not just partly in Jesus Christ my ISHI until death do us part which I will go to heaven my home when the King comes to pick us up. So I have made it through these 7 years by writing, drawing, crocheting, Bible studies, helping with the set up crew for GBB help in church, been a sponsor, accountability partner, a leader in Celebrate Recovery. I am a prayer warrior (intercessor), mentor others in their Bible studies, help with Devotions in our pods. I stay focused on Jesus Christ and when I am living in FMUCC and whoever God puts in my like I help in Jesus name. I like to sing, dance to God and worship Him ... pray, pray, pray. I will be honest, if I attempted to do this without God, I would be gone for this is not a nice place and honestly, neither had the outside been either so I've had to rely on God and not man. Thank you Lord Jesus. This is my story. This is my Song. Praising my Savior all the day long. To God be the Glory! There is a lot we can do to stop a lot of this mass incarceration and getting out of this kind of living yet. Do we really want to? of just keep ignoring what we really need to do? God is the answer.
