Transcript
Just going through the motion J1 Not really alot to do but sleep is a main one but right now Im just going through the motion. Its a daily struggle to keep my mind focused on whats important. With the Covid-19 in affect I feel like life is very short but god aint done with me yet. My mom is getting old and she cant find to many things to live for so its better if she has a reason to live. I lost my boys once now it looks like my mom will get them again. Im just going through the motion. Im not as young as I use to be but I not as old as people make me out to be. They just turned the lights out in this cage of mine but I love the dark it helps me live better and to think J2 when your back here in this dungeon you got to have a reason to live or you become a nobody. At one time I felt like a nobody but things are getting better when I can express my thoughts to you on this paper. I guess you can say Im just going through the motion thats all. Sometimes writing is my only release in this dark tunnel of mine cause Im just going through the motion. I think: now this is my thoughts thats all. That the reason this is so hard is cause not enough people know what going through the motion really means. Today its silent in the (Foam Room) this is the place where people who want to harm themselves or other is put. (I is not a punishment) I say this for all those who think putting a human being in a Foamed J3 Room is humane!! Its not. You cant tell if Im pretending to be mentally retarded by putting me butt necked in this room!! I hear people scream, yell, sing all to pass time in this 4 walls of destruction. I try to find out my purpose in life but most days I just be going through the motions. I do this now so that I can remember once Im no longer inside this box what it feels like to be all alone with my thought and nothing else. No money, no cars, no family only me, myself, and I.
