Reflections from the cement coffin July 23, 2013

Reflections From the Cement Coffin (July 23, 2013 - Tuesday-Roughly 3:45 P.M.) I'm at the California health care facility now. Last night was my first night here. I had multiple experiences within the inner dreamworld during intermittent rest periods. They all related to the movement of consciousness - a discussion about the movement of consciousness. These experiences occurred from about 11:00 P.M. until 3:00 A.M. It was the terminology model "divine-human being" that seemed to clearly resonate. We are divine-human beings. The difference among us is the degree to which we accept and are aware of the nature of our divinity. But again, when it comes to our existence, words are only the hypotheticals we use. The terminology "divine-human being" would appear to be a effective one for reasons I don't intend to go into now. (July 24, 2013 - Wednesday - roughly 2:00 A.M.) I wondered Monday night when I would see a star in the sky now that I have a wide open view from the cell window. I was able to observe a bright one seemingly positioned a short distance away directly in front of the window. I noticed it after once I opened my eyes at about 9:00 P.M. after a rest period. There were a couple of other stars that later appeared as well, but they have all sense retreated back into the depth of inner space. It seems the observation of stars makes me feel at home. (Roughly 2:30 A.M.) It seems the primary reflection resonating with me this morning has to do with four progressive ways of thinking: the American dream (self-determination), through Christ who strengthens me I can do all things (biblical story), I get what I strive for (Quranic story), and respect the game because the game will respect you (inner-city street theory/hypothesis). It seems that it can be said the the theoretical-hypothetical framework rather is constructed around these four basic progressive ways of thinking. From a strategic standpoint, this allows us to engage the collective consciousness of this world, in a very real practical manner, in a discussion about the logical way for us to move forward along our journey together as one boot-politic. For those who are unable to make the connection between the four progressive ways of thinking and civilized conduct toward each other. The exercise of our creative potential in right now time, it would seem reasonable to consider the cause of the inability may be a significant form of mental illness that we are right now seeking to cure ourselves of. (Roughly 6:30 A.M.) Interesting experience with inner dreamworld - real lucid. It felt like I was in downtown Sacto, at the cross-section of 18th Ave & L Street. I was with a bunch of family and friends. We were piling into several car loads on our way to a destination. The station wagon I was about to get into seemed to be too crowded so I told my Mom I was going to walk. She kept insisting that I get in - that there was enough room but I started walking. There were a lot of people walking up and down the street sidewalk. I observed two female officers that had just gotten off work walk into the outdoor patio of a restauraunt and sit down. They were happy - talking busily about another job - a babysitting job/housekeeping job that paid so well they wouldn't have to do anything else. The two female officers would seem to personify the movement of the sleeping lady I am experiencing in the environment surrounding me. I didn't say anything to the female officers. I made my observation and kept walking. I then got on a bus. After a short while I realized I was lost and that I had to find my way back home. I asked the driver to stop the bus and let me off. After I got off the bus, before the driver could close the door, I noticed that I hadn't - didn't have my shoes on - He handed me a pair of shoes and started to pull off but I banged on the side of the door to get his attention to stop the bus again because the pair of shoes were the wrong kind. I gave them back and then he handed me a pair that were mismatched - one of the shoes were mine and the other one wasn't. The mismatched shoes would seem to reflect the positive-negative polarized emotional being + the negatively polarized emotional being being the shoe that wasn't mine. It was the third time that shoes were a even matched pair. Maybe this is reflective of undifferentiated consciousness being the shoes I am walking in. It was after the third time that the bus pulled off and I started to walk home. I felt that I understood my way. The experience would seem to be connected to the deepening awareness I am experiencing since my arrival here at the California health care facility. Once I opened my eyes from the experience, I looked out the cell window and there was a full moon in the early morning darkened sky. I wondered how soon it would be before she appeared. I wonder if the configuration of stars will begin to appear as they did when I was at Soledad. (Roughly 10:40 A.M.) Our wars - battles - arguments are not against one another. They are against death (i.e. disease). Our fight is against not living. We have to state a claim upon which relief may be granted from death. But how is this possible if we exhibit behavior toward one another deserving of death? It seems reasonable to consider that to learn how to stop being against each other is to learn how to move toward winning the war against death - to learn how to win the war against that negative - degenerative part of ourself. (Roughly 5:10 P.M.) Interesting sequence of events have occurred today and it is the experience with the inner dreamworld I opened my eyes from a short while ago that has seemingly connected all the dots to the sequence for me. What I recall of the experience is being at a brand new facility. I was being shown around by two inmates who had already been at the facility. The facility was spacious - had quad areas or spacious outdoor corridors like this facility. The two inmates took me and showed me the kitchen. I was like a restaurant in that we had to walk up to the counter and order the food on the menu. The two inmates spoke to me about what it was their favorite to eat. The scene shifted and we were then sitting at a large table in a room - spacious with high ceilings - having a discussion about it now being the time along our evolutionary path that we are ready to begin acting civilized toward each other; that we can begin to be open and honest with each other without the backlash of judgment against each other and condemnation. The scene then shifted again. I was standing in a building with officers and inmates. There was a white inmate talking to us about signs - saying that he wasn't sure if the new inmates understood the signs and how to communicate with them - that we needed to know the signs in order to communicate. He then began to communicate with his hands and arms a series of signs that seemed to be different geometrical configurations such as a circle - a pyramid and a long rectangle with the letter why (Y) at the end of it. This is when I opened my eyes. The experience seemed to be much longer than what I am able to recall. (July 25, 2013 - Thursday - Roughly 3:00 A.M.) At roughly 9:30 P.M. last night I oserved a three star configuration as a symmetrical line in a diagnol position. The same bright star I observed early yesterday morning seemed to be the anchor in the lowest position. I afterwards entered into a rest period and had another experience with the inner dreamworld. All that I am able to recall of it is one of my ex cellmates, Mitch, asking me if I had listened to this rapper perform on television. The scene shifted and it seemed that we were both at the live performance listening in person. Mitch being a talented rapper himself, I told him that they both flowed like divine beings. He told me that I did the same with my writing. It was at this point that I opened my eyes. (July 26, 2013 - Friday - Roughly 3:14 A.M.) I've been up since about 2:00 A.M. after suddenly opening my eyes after another experience with the inner dreamworld. My recollection of the experience, except for the magnetism of the vortex, is too vague to recount. But maybe what is somehow related to the experience is the short writing by William James titled The Moral Equivalent of War that I finished reading a short while ago. I am now able to connect the reflections he shares more clearly to the organizing necessity of the American enterprise (i.e. grassroot [timocracy?]). His essential point appears to be that the objective of peace must be pursued similar to that of a military campaign. He writes, "... I will now confess my own utopia. I devoutly believe in the reign of peace and in the gradual advent of some sort of a socialistic equilibrium. The fatalistic view of the war-function is to me nonsense, for I know that war-making is due to definite motives and subject to prudential checks and reasonable criticisms, just like any other form of enterprise. And when whole nations are the armies, and the science of destruction vies in intellectual refinement with the sciences of production, ... war becomes absurd and impossible from its own monstrosity. Extravagant ambitions will have to be replaced by reasonable claims, and nations must make common cause against them. I see no reason why all this should not apply to yellow as well as to white countries, and I forward to a future when acts of war shall be formally outlawed as between civilized peoples. All these beliefs of mine put me squarely into the anti-militarist party. But I do not believe that peace either ought to be or will be permanent on this globe, unless the states pacifically organized preserve some of the old elements of army-discipline' (pgs 5, 6). He goes on to say, "Let me illustrate my idea more concretely. There is nothing to make one indignant in the mere fact that life is hard, that men should toil and suffer pain. The planetary conditions once for all are such, and we can stand it. But that so many men, by mere accidents of birth and opportunity, should have a life of nothing else but toil and pain and hardness and inferiority imposed upon them, should have no vocation, while others natively no more deserving never get any taste of this campaigning life at all, - this is capable of arousing indignation in reflective minds. It may end by seeming shameful to all of us that some of us have nothing but campaigning, and others nothing but unmanly ease. If now - and this is my idea - there were, instead of military conscription a conscription of the whole youthful population form for a certain number of years a part of the army enlisted against nature, the injustice would tend to be evened out, and numerous other goods to the commonwealth would follow. The military deals of hardihood and discipline would be wrought into the growing fiber of the people; no one would remain blind as the luxurious classes now are blind, to man's relations to the globe he lives on, and to the permanently sour and hard foundations of his higher life. To coal and iron mines, to freight trains, to fishing fleets in December, to dish-washing, clothes-washing, and window-washing, to road-building and tunnel-making, to foundries and stoke-holes, and to the frames of skyscrapers, would our guilded youths be drafted off, according to their choice, to get the childishness knocked out of them, and to come back into society with healthier sympathies and soberer ideas. They would have paid their blood-tax, done their own part in the immemorial human warfare against nature; they would tread the earth more proudly, the women would value them more highly, they would be better fathers and teachers of the following generation" (Pgs. 6,7) When William James talks about a conscription of the whole youthful population like that of a army being enlisted to fight a war against nature, it seems reasonable to consider that a grassroot movement to fight the war against the degenerative thinking part of ourself and therefore nature is what is being indicated. But also, when he speaks of the youth afterwards coming back into society with sympathies and soberer ideas, it seems the television shows Undercover Boss and Secret Millionaire give us a modern day example of the effectiveness of the conscription he talks about. As in the case of Undercover Boss, a CEO of a corporation or business with blue collar workers goes to work for his/her business as a blue collar worker in disguise. The personal experience of relating to the hard work and seeing first hand the trials and tribulations of the average blue collar worker trying to get ahead in life generally moves the CEO to afterwards have a positive - progressive change of heart with respect to the way he/she views his/her employees as fellow beings, as well as the way business is conducted with the interest of the employees more in mind. Secret Millionaire is the same basically, except that it is simply a wealthy individual who goes undercover and volunteers working for two or three non-profit organizations assisting the poor and needy in order to determine which one to give money too. As a result of the real time connections made with people helping people, as well as with the people in need of help, the experience appears to profoundly change the wealthy person. This seems to be what William James had in mind when he talks about the childishness being knocked out of people and coming back into society with healthier sympathies and soberer ideas. As opposed to childishness, I consider it to be adultishness - the inability to more strongly connect with the plight of people and the sobering reality in this ideologically constructed world. It is what William James says about so many people having a life of nothing else but toil and pain and hardness and inferiority imposed upon them by mere accidents of birth and opportunity. That is also interesting to me. Whether knowingly or unknowingly, he appears to make the connection between the nature of our existence as many members in one body and the principle of polarity. The principle of polarity tells us, "Everything is dual; Everything has poles; Everything has its pair of opposites; like and unlike are the same; opposites are identical in nature, but different in degree; extremes meet; all truths are but half-truths; all paradoxes may be reconciled." The principle of polarity seems to suggest that, as members of our United Stares being, we all experience our existence according to a different degree. The difference would appear to be the degree of emotional intelligence we experience. However, the different degrees of emotional intelligence we experience as individual members are essentially the same. Another way to look at the connection between the nature of our existence and the principle of polarity is through the numerical chart of one through nine. Hypothetically the zero has to exist otherwise it would be impossible for the value of the numbers one through nine to be effectively organized as a functioning system with unlimited potential (i.e. 1,2,3,4,...9,10... infinity). But, if we just look at the number nine, it clearly has its dual opposite, which would appear to be the negative nine. (Roughly 5:30 P.M.) The flow of emotional intelligence has shifted - maybe because I have made the connections to the William James reflections I was intended to make and now after slowly probing a number of perceptual forms it is time for me to move through them with a little more pace - I don't know - I speak with no certainty about this - it's just the way I feel. Let me go back to the number nine where I left off at - the positive and the negative nine are dual - they are a pair of opposites - as like and unlike they are the same in the most basic sense that they are both the number nine - they are identical in nature but different in degree - the two extremes of the positive nine and negative nine meet - the truth of it is but a half-truth though - how is it possible for the two opposing nines - positive and negative to be the same - intellectually it is absurd but it is impossible for a reasonable mind to deny the commonality between the two - the paradox is therefore capable of being reconciled - All these are characteristics of the principle of polarity- I want to pay close attention to the two extreme poles being the positive nine and the negative nine with the various numbers in between the two poles (essentially being inside the number nine) Being the nine experiencing its existence in different degrees or being different degrees of the number nine (i.e. +8.-8, +7/-7, +6/-6 etc) - The number nine would be like a Russian doll with each smaller number being the smaller doll contained inside it - The consideration is that each degree of the number nine must exist as it exist and must experience its existence as it is degreed to experience its existence (there appears to be a sound coding between the word model decree and degree) - Without the decreed existence of each degree of experience, it would appear that the numerical boot would be incapable of manifesting into existence as many in order to experience its existence - The same logic appears to apply to our existence as members of the United States being - I have covered this before in previous reflections but it is what William James says about the many people suffering toil and pain and hardness and inferiority imposed upon them due to mere accidents of birth and opportunity that brings me back to the connection between our existence as members of our United States being and the principle of polarity - It may be disingenuous to suggest that under the yoke of the of the trickle down economic pyramid scheme that we have experienced since the inception of this ideologically constructed world - It seems disingenuous to suggest that every member of our society has the ability or the potential to overcome the suffering and hardships imposed upon them without stating what that potential ability is conditioned upon. (Roughly 9:11 P.M.) The bright star is in the sky. (July 27, 2013 - Saturday - Roughly 12:46 A.M.) I went out into the dayroom last night a little after 7:00 P.M. to walk around in the spaciousness of it - at least when compared to the other dayrooms I have walked around in. I'm still getting a kick out of observing the mixture of inmates housed in the building - I told Scottie last night that the mixture was like a gumbo soup - The various ranges of age, time of incarceration and psychology. But I suppose this is generally the case with all prison populations - Maybe more so though with the lower level two custody level. What interests me about the observation is that it seems to radically reinforce the lack of desire I have to speak outside myself about the experience I am having with the intention to share and help upload the consciousness of others. It would appear to be a reflection of me to a much greater degree being able to respect/appreciate the space-time in which others experience their existence, as well as me being able, to a much greater degree, to accept the dynamic creativity - The uploading of consciousness having to occur from the inside out. The reflection that spoke to me yesterday morning seems to fit in neatly here: When Shawn talks too much he sounds like a ignorant fool, and I can only outwardly speak through Shawn. In any case, if one is aware of the truth, there is very little to say and, if one is not aware of the truth, there is very little to say. Time should be spent seeking. Time should be spent doing the work necessary to become more aware of the truth. But I suppose for many a part of doing the work is speaking out on behalf of the work we are doing. I suppose what is really happening to me in connection with the observation of the inmates around me is the contrasting effect between the discussions I was able to have with Robert and the general content of the discussions I am over hearing between inmates. Right now at least there seems to be a small psychosis centered around complaining. It is interesting to me because the agreement with the system upon transferring here seemed to be to be patient with the process of the program getting up and running effeciently. But, when I consider the expanse of space and time Robert and I were able to cover in our discussions, the question as to where else is there for me to go in discussions outside myself resonates strongly. Robert and I were able to travel a great distance together not only because of his similar passion for philosophy but also as a result of his humility to the process of rehabilitating awareness. It seems reasonable to say that it is difficult to discover a inmate that has grasped possibly the most basic fundamental lesson within rehabilitation, which is that it was the presumption of knowing something that led to incarceration behind these physical walls and yet most still presume to know something. It is the presumption that seems to make it impossible for me to travel with most inmates as I did with Robert. But for me the emotional intelligence appears to be indicating the time to concentrate even more focus on the work I am doing inside myself. This it seems is how the emotional intelligence of this facility began to speak to me as soon as I arrived and observed the spaciousness of the outside quad area - the dayroom and the bigger cells. I am going to be able to focus and travel much deeper into my own space and time here (Roughly 2:21 A.M.) I received a work [docat?] for a job in the main kitchen washing carts while I was in the dayroom last night. I was aware that I would, so I was expecting it. What I wasn't expecting though was the heavy emotional ambivalence I experienced once I returned to the cell. Of cours the thing about the job that would appear to frighten me is the work hours conflicting with my writing. But the hours are from twelve to eight at night. This makes it possible for me to rest for a few hours as I am doing now. What accounted for the emotional ambivalence though? It became so heavy that it felt like I was crying inside because the tears wouldn't trickle down my cheeks. I sought comfort in the bright star I was able to observe through the window on the back wall; the same star that seems to appear at around nine o'clock when it appears. I stood by the window for a short while contemplating - observing until I sat down on the bunk and continued. Was the job a indication for me to slow down with my writing? Not being allowed to have a personal night light for reading/writing would appear to be the confirmation where a cellmate is concerned and it is no longer appropriate for me to keep the light on during the early morning hours due to the inconvenience it would cause - but I suppose the dim night light that automatically remains on within the cell lighting system would be enough - But slowing down with my writing makes no sense to me - maybe it's the thought of being compelled to do so that contributed to the heavy emotional ambivalence - The feeling of crying inside perhaps being indicative of the need and passion I have to continue writing - The emotional intelligence made no sense to me - I crawled underneath the covers burying my head in the sheets and blanket - Growing tired from the processing - Attempting to escape into a deep rest period from the ambivalence - and then it seemed that emotional intelligence spoke to me about it. My path is being guided by a invisible awareness of her existence. The movement relating to the job assignment would be no different. (Roughly 3:49 A.M.) Let me get back to the reflections of William James. The long history of the trickle down economic pyramid scheme has shown us clearly it seems that, under such a system, every member of our society is not capable of creating a peaceful and stable experience for her/his self because the ideological system is directly in opposition to it. The poor and needy have always existed in our society as well as in this world. The many who suffer have always existed. This would seem to clearly confirm what William James says about mere accidents of birth and opportunity, as well as what the principle of polarity indicates about all degrees of experience having to exist at least until the paradox is resolved. In other words, it seems reasonable to say that every member of our society and this world has the ability to create and experience a peaceful - stable life on one condition - that the system is put in place to facilitate instead of oppose the potential to do so. (Roughly 7:28 A.M.) I laid down for another short rest period at about 5:00 A.M. Roughly. It was a short while ago that I opened my eyes suddenly from another experience experience with the inner dreamworld. I don't recall it as clearly as the experience was to me during its' occurance. I was in a dayroom like setting having a discussion with two inmates. The discussion had something to do with my experience and the nature of this reality. The two inmates were under the presumption of knowing something and took issue with some of the considerations I put on the table for discussion. There was no exploration taking place. They were attempting to engage me in a right or wrong argument. I then began to remove myself from the discussion. The scene shifted and I was talking with a inmate who was wearing the uniform of a captain with the police departmant. I somehow already understood that he was in training to be a captain with the police department once he got out of prison but it also seemed that it was already his job. I wondered to myself how that was possible as he talked to me about living with him and getting away from the commotion with the two inmates. As we talked, it appeared that I could look outside the facility and see what was going on. He told me to go talk to somebody about something I don't recall. I returned to him telling him that the person couldn't hear me through the window of the office he was in. It was at this point that I suddenly opened my eyes. There are a number of connections with the experience that I see, such as the inmate in the captain's uniform being symbolic of myself as a servant leader of the grassroot - going to live with the captain being possibly indicative of the deeper concentrated focus with doing the work inside myself that seems intended for me to do by virtue of being transferred to this facility - me being sent to talk to somebody and the person being unable to hear me through the window of the office would appear to be reflective of the necessity of uploading the degrees of consciousness - of particles of consciousness until all paradoxes are reconciled into the zero point emotional being (just like the positive and negative number nine are capable of being reconciled into the body of zero - without which they would hypothetically be polar opposites forever). One way to perceive reconciling the different degrees of particles of consciousness into the body of zero is the activation of undifferentiated consciousness to encompass the particles of consciousness as one United States being - But the reconciling would appear to be reciprocal-symbiotic because it would seem to be the uniting of the particles of consciousness that gives manifestation to the living existence of undifferentiated consciousness being translated from hypothesis to experience of the world which reflects undifferentiated consciousness. In other words, the picture of divided puzzle pieces remains unmanifested until the puzzle pieces are united as one - and if the picture of the divided puzzle pieces is likened to be the symbol of the puzzle pieces undifferentiated consciousness, then it would appear to be the acceptance of the symbol by the puzzle pieces that is the prerequisite to the unification and manifestation - it seems reasonable to consider the different degrees of particles of consciousness are invisible beings - the living existence of these invisible beings through the office window of the visible beings observed everyday with the physical eyes is difficult to discern due to presumptions about the nature of our existence - This despite the fact that the invisible beings are talked about every Friday and Sunday in the mosque and church as the [Jinn?] and the principalities of the air. It seems reasonable to consider that the invisible beings helping to guide my path are already well aware of who I am - are aware of who they are and are therefore aware of who we are as members of the same body. (Roughly 5:25 P.M.) Emotional intelligence is speaking to me about a number of things related to the invisible being part of our existence that I have been patiently listening to attempting to more clearly grasp. The emotional intelligence is moving my acceptance of what is, concerning the paradoxical nature of our existence, to deeper levels. I realize that working to help reconcile the paradox between the visible and invisible worlds leaves me choice except to humble myself to and accept what I am compelled to experience by virtue of the path I am travelling. It is sometimes emotionally difficult. Intellectually their is no turning back. Maybe the emotional difficulties I sometimes experience illustrate the contrasting existence between the visible being and invisible being. The visible being would then be considered to be a secondary form invisible being whose role is to make it difficult for us to see the nature of our existence until the paradox is reconciled. the biblical story may speak of this as the invisible things being foolishness to this world or the physical (judgmental) mind being unable to discern the things of the invisible world yet the invisible being appearing to be many but really united as one clearly guides my path through visible beings. It seems the paradox is intended to make me feel like a extraterrestrial experiencing existence in this world. By the time the paradox is reconciled, the numerous years of nuerological associative conditioning will already have grown to strong to reverse the perception (Roughly 6:01 P.M.) I want to go back to the William James reflections. The system - the ideologically - ideological system of trickle down economic pyramid scheme is not only a system of governance that violates the separation of church and state (the constitutional provision is intended to prevent the legislation of a individual or party of individuals opinion into the fabric of our political system which is rooted in divine law and not the double-mindedness of opinions), but it facilitates the existence of the have and have nots. The ideological system of trickle down economic pyramid scheme is a system of have and have nots. This is the simplest way to say it. The ideological system does nothing substantive to assist us in reconciling the paradox outside of showing us the way not to travel. It is reasonable to say that every member in our society has the potential to make it, but not in a ideological system that does nothing substantive to cultivate potential. Haves and haves not - that's it. We have to stop lying to ourselves about this have - have not system we support, by virtue of our grassroot disorganization, if we are to move forward and create the civilized world we desire to experience our existence in the declaration for independence tells us, "... all experience hath shewn, that mankind are more disposed to suffer, while evils are sufferable, than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed." I'm not suggesting that those who desire the have-have not system are wrong for doing. They have the privelege to dream as they choose. Our battle is not against them. It is against our own underawareness of what is. The obvious logic is that there is no way we can create the world of American exceptionalism as long as there is suffering in this world and there is no way that we will be able to rehabilitate ourselves from suffering as long as (8 the system of haves and haves-not is operable in this world. But the biblical story may speak of this much more clearly then I am able to. We are subjectively admonished by the following: "There are diversities of activities, but it is the same higher power who works all in all but the manifestation of the higher power is given to each one for the profit of all: for to one is given the word of wisdom through the higher power, to another the word of knowledge through the same higher power... but one and the same higher power works all these things, distributing to each one individually as he wills... there are many members yet one body, and the eye cannot say to the hand, "I have no need of you"; nor again the head to the feet, "I have no need of you."... Those members of the body which seem to be weaker are necessary. And those members of the body we think to be less honorable, on these we bestow greater honor... The higher power composed the boot having given greater honor to that part which lacks it, that there should be no schism in the body, but that the members should have the same care for one another. And if one member suffers, all the members suffer with it; or if one member is honored, all the members rejoice with it" (1 cor. 12: 6-8, 11, 20-26). The biblical reflections seem to also confirm the connection between the nature of our existence as members of our United States being and the principle of polarity. It seems reasonable to consider that the members of the body which seem to be weaker are necessary because every degree of experience has to exist until the members of the body are reconciled into one (July 28, 2013 - Sunday - Roughly 1:04 A.M.) It seems that I have been spending a lot of time moving through these William James related reflections. The considerations seem to be vitally important - redundant I know but vital and important nonetheless because if it is reasonable to consider that we have been supporting a ideological system og governance all this time that essentially does no more than facilitate the divide of the have-have nots, it then becomes reasonable to seriously consider a dramatic shift in thinking about how we should utilize our system of governance and conduct our business with the poor and the needy. There really seems to be no middle ground. Either we are going to utilize our system of governance to facilitate the divide between the have and have nots or we are going to utilize our system of governance to facilitate the rehabilitative process of every member in our immediate society and this world at large. This is the leadership role our grassroot body is intended to take - is expected to take. If we dont understand which one we are utilizing our system of governance for, then how is it reasonably possible for us to expect to move forward with finishing the creation of this world. The delay in doing so only delays the moment in which we are able to begin to experience the real beauty that life is intended to be. This seems to be what William James was, whether knowingly or unknowingly, getting at way back in 1910 when he wrote The Moral Equivalent of War. And still today it is necessary to have the same discussion. However, the developmental awareness resulting from such discussions would appear to be connected to what William James says about conscripting a army of grassroot members to help us fight the battle against our own foolish ignorance when it especially comes to the obligation we have to the poor and needy. The connection betwen the nature of our existence as members of our United States being and the principle of polarity also underscores the profound wisdom of what the biblical story speaks of as pure and undefiled religion - staying free of the religious and political ideologies that divide us against each other and focusing on eradicating the suffering of the poor and needy. The complication of the directive exist in the simplicity of its' logic. It's not about the presumption of knowing but rather about doing the work that it takes to follow the directive and reconcile the members of our body into our body as one United States being. William James appears to be saying that the work is the moral equivalent of war - that it is the civil war we still have to fight - that it is condusive for us to approach our objective in much the same way the military brass approaches waging a war against enemy combatants. The difference is that the enemy combatants are our own foolish ignorance and the divisions of our grassroot body resulting from it. William James goes on to write, "Such a conscription, with the state of public opinion that would require it, and the many moral fruits it would bear, would have in the midst of a Pacific civilization the manly virtues which military party is so afraid of seeing disappear in peace. We should let toughness without callousness, authority with as little criminal cruelty as possible, and painful work done cheerily because the duty temporary, and threatens not, as now, to degrade the whole remainder of one's life. I spoke of the "moral equivalent" of war. So far, war has been the only force that can discipline a whole community, discipline and until an equivalent discipline is organized, I believe that war must have its way. But I have no serious doubt that the ordinary prides and shames of social man, once developed to a certain intensity, are capable of organizing such a moral equivalent as I have sketched, or some other just as effective for preserving manliness of type. It is but a question of time, of skillful propagandism, and of opinion - making men seizing historic opportunities" (Pg. 7). (Roughly 3;05 A.M.) This is interesting. My desire is to take my time and move extensively through these reflections, but I can feel the effects of the prison environment, as a compression chamber for me, compelling me to continue moving through these reflections at a certain pace in order to get to others. It seems as if I had to express this particular emotional intelligence in order to continue moving forward through these particular reflections. I spent the last fifteen or twenty minutes listening to the emotional intelligence in order to more clearly discern what was possibly being said. (Roughly 3:20 A.M.) William James talk about "preserving manliness" and opinion-making men seizing historic opportunities would appear to be a reflection of the more extreme degree of mental illness called patriarchy that was more strongly conditioned upon the mind in the 1920's than what it maybe is today. The reasonableness of his analysis. The connection he makes between the authority of patriarchy and criminal cruelty would seem to underscore the reasonableness of the analysis he shares, as well as correspond with the connection between the nature of our existence as members of our United States being and the principle (i.e. divine law) of polarity (i.e. like and unlike are the same). For example, while people are conditioned to fear the common street thug - potential rapist - serial killer - petty thief - robber as a threat to public safety, at the same time people are conditioned to respect and admire the common street thug in high places of authority in this ideological system. The criminal behavior that appears to be different is basically the same. However, whether it be the criminal behavior on Wall Street and capital hill or in a poor neighborhood or in wealthy suburbs, it seems reasonable to consider that the criminal behavior is a product of the system of have-have nots that is supported. It seems reasonable to consider that it is the trickle down economic pyramid scheme that is the real threat to public safety. The point consideration I want to make here is that it is not about preserving manliness or opinion-making men seizing historic opportunities; organizing the moral equivalent of war would appear to be about increasing the preservation of the application of simple divine-principled logic. It would appear to be about an effective way of thinking seizing historic opportunities. I think of it as the American enterprise - the building of a great vessel - of great and powerful cooperative grassroot body that wil make it possible for us to travel beyond this ideologically constructed world and continue along our journey together into a new world reflective of our divine existence. But it is probably difficult for many of us to imagine the profound organizing power we possess in potential that will allow us to organize on such a level as what William James speaks of as the moral equivalent of war. The difficulty imagining the organizing power of our grassroot body would appear to exist primarily because of the political and religious ideologies we allow to divide us against each other and that, generation after generation, we have utilized our economic power to enrich the few as opposed to strengthen, organize and build up the many. In other words, we really haven't had the opportunity to see our economic might at work when it comes to organizing our grassroot body, from the so-called weakest member to the stronger. It seems reasonable to consider that it isn't a question of whether or not we have the organizational capability to provide food, clothing, shelter, employment and this facilitation of rehabilitative awareness to all the members of our United States being who desire it and are in need of it. The only question is the strength of our intention to do so. The organizational capability has to be possible, otherwise it would be impossible for us to create the world that both the Holy Quran (i.e. Allah says you will get what you strive for) and the Holy Bible (i.e. through Christ who strengthens me I can do all things), as well as principled-divine logic (i.e. the American Dream - I can achieve what I believe and understand how to achieve) tells us we have the creative potential to create. Maybe one of the easiest ways to imagine the potential of our grassroot organizing power is to consider how much currency could have been invested in progressively rehabilitating the so-called weaker members of our body to self-sustainability had the hundreds of trillions of dollars over the last few decades voters approved to be given freely to super wealthy corporations been responsibly utilized to effectively build the many members of our body. If it is possible to pay politicians large salaries to mismanage budgets - operate a system of crony capitalism under the facade of the trickle down economic pyramid scheme - to pay wealthy corporations huge sums of money to take jobs out of the country - etc - etc - then surely it is possible to utilize that same money to create jobs building the infrastructure - to create jobs for the youth helping to organize and uplift their own communities in conjunction with the overall enterprise - it is possible for us to create jobs for the members of our society if it is the sincere intention to do so. The argument seems to always be that there isn't enough money - what if somebody is lying - what if the bookkeeper can't be trusted - like a crooked banker in the monopoly game always stashing money for his own selfish interest when nobody is looking. At the very least, it would seem to be simple logic that there wouldn't be enough money to do the grassroot organizing we need to do if the trickle down economic pyramid scheme is swindling the lion's share of taxpayer money for itself. It makes me wonder if it really cost eighty billion dollars to strengthen the border along Mexico or whatever the astronomical figure is - and if not who is putting the remaining money in their pockets - what the system of have-have nots has conditioned us to do is give all the money (i.e. our faith + attention) to super wealthy corporations and then depend on them to create jobs as opposed to organizing grassroot dimocracy and utilizing the money to create jobs for the many and to establish a system of governance that moves effectively toward eradicating poverty - both economically and in our way of thinking. The grassroot organizing capability that is the moral equivalent of war would seem to be a logistical set up capable of putting members in at one end so that when they appear out the other end they are self-sustainable understanding how to effectively navigate their own path. It would be like holding the hand of those of us in need of the encouragement and support and walking our brothers and sisters through the process. This similar to what is done in the military and, for me, the prison system as well. Basic necessities are met and I have been walked through the process - at least to the degree that I currently have. It seems reasonable to consider that we must create or establish the process the effectively builds the character of our members as well as the standard of living for the poor and needy. William James goes on to write about the organizing of the moral equivalent of war. He says, "The martial type of character can be bred without war... The only thing needed henceforward is to inflame the civic temper as past history has inflamed the military temper. H.G. Wells, as usual, sees the centre of the situation." In many ways "he says, "Military organization is the most peaceful of activities. When the contemporary man steps from the street, of clamorous insincere advertisement, push, adulteration, underselling and intermittent employment into the barrack-yard, he steps on to a higher social plane. into an atmosphere of service and cooperation and of infinitely more honorable emulations. Here at least men are not flung out of employment to degenerate because there is no immediate work for them to do. They are fed and drilled and trained for better services. Here at least a man is supposed to win promotion by self-forgetfulness and not by self-seeking. And beside the feeble and irregular endowment of research by commercialism, its little shortsighted snatches at profit by innovation and scientific economy, see how remarkable is the steady and rapid development of method and appliances in naval and military affairs... Houses a couple of hundred years old are still satisfactory places of residence, so little have our standards risen. But the rifle or battleship of fifty years ago was beyond all comparison inferior to those we possess; in power, in speed, in convenience alike. No one has a use now for such superannuated things" (Pgs, 7,8). (Roughly 11:15 A.M.) I'm sitting at a table in the dayroom now experiencing the effect of the greater degree of spaciousness on my emotional intelligence. Connections in my mind are continuing to be made to the William James reflections. It doesnt appear to be as a result of any effort on my part beyond the initial engagements. I think of the Higgs Field Theory in that the degree to which the Higgs Field is interacted with determines the degree to which the particle (i.e. consciousness) acquires mass. It seems reasonable to consider that the connections between reflections emotional intelligence continues to make corresponds with the particle acquiring mass. I see more clearly that I have to allow the process to unfold before I am able to state the matter simply. What the William James reflections are talking about is what would appear to be a more effective approach to organizing grassroot timocracy. The point consideration that H.G. Wells makes about the steady and rapid development of method and appliances in naval and military affairs compared to the feeble and irregular endowment of research by commercialism and its little shortsighted snatches at profit by innovation and scientific economy would seem to correspond with the steady and rapid development of technological know-how being a reflection of the development of collective consciousness. It seems reasonable to consider that to organize according to the moral equivalent of war, as William James suggested in 1910, would be to strengthen the projection of positively polarized emotional intelligence - It would be to concentrate it more greatly and spur rapid creativity accordingly. (Roughly 2:27 P.M.) What is interesting about having moved through the William James reflections is the movement that led to me doing it. Thursday, when I was called down to R & R to pick my property up, the officer, while going through my things, told me that I need to down size the amount of miscellaneous paperwork I had over the last decade or so I had accumulated a considerable amount of notes on various topics of study, rough drafts of various writings, different excerpts of readings, etc. It had been difficult for me to discard anything because of the work I'm doing on the hypothetical framework - attempting to make clearer and clearer sense of it. I suppose I perceived all the miscellaneous paperwork to be a part of my research material. I agreed though. I did need to downsize the amount of it. When she told me the second time, I told her that I would. So later on that night, as I filtered through my miscellaneous paperwork determining what to keep and what to throw away, I stumbled across the moral equivalent of war essay by William James. It was passed out during the critical thinking class I audited while participating in the Patten College prison project at San Quentin in 2007. Maybe I decided to keep the essay because I intuitively realized that I was unable then to grasp the broader intent of the essay as I was intended to. Just like the advancement of technology may be a reflection of the advancement of collective awareness, it would appear to be the case that my now much greater grasp of the essay roughly six years later is a reflection of the degree to which my awareness has advanced since then. When I spotted it, the title appeared to jump out at me. It felt as if I was intended to revisit the essay all along when it was first given to me by my teacher. I sat it on the desk in my cell with the intention to do so and continued going through my paperwork determining what I should keep and what I should throw away. After now having explored the moral equivalent of war, it seems I am able to see more clearly that our journey into a new world with a new experience is contingent upon a choice. Do we choose to continue to help uphold the system of have-have nots or do we choose to organize with the principled-divine nature of our system and effectively utilize our grassroot organizing power to rehabilitate all the members of our United States being? This means each other. Had the officer not told me to downsize my paperwork, I don't think I would have revisited the essay on my own accord. It wasn't even registering with my thought process before I stumbled upon it. My intention was to begin moving through reflections on paper relating to a seemingly new perceptual form I was shown that Thursday while sitting quietly in a chair/seat contemplating emotional intelligence waiting for the officer to call me into the designated area to go through my property in front of me. This is a example of how my higher power guides my path with the assistance of the members of our United States being. After downsizing my miscellaneous paperwork, I feel much more organized. Nobody