Reflections From the Cement Coffin
(July 8, 2013 - Monday - Roughly 8:38 p.m.) This shift I am experiencing seemingly began happening early Saturday morning at roughly 12:30 A.M - after I opened my eyes from experiencing the inner world of the subconscious mind. I was sitting in a classroom with other students listening to women talk. I had already experienced a series of similar experiences the previous few days. But it was during the one early Saturday morning that I was able clearly recollect something that was said to me. The voice of a woman asked me: "what do you remember the most?" I still continue to search the question.
Early Sunday morning alittle after 3:00 A.M. I opened my eyes from another experience. I was in what appeared to be a long wide hallway at a school campus. The hallway had doors and windows facing outside - the floor was a shiney white marble and the sun was shining brightly through the windows. One side of the hallway was empty and on the other side were students and teachers moving about while at the same time watching me trying to kill a big brown spider. It looked like a brown recluse but maybe four times bigger. I was on my hands and knees looking under tables. I wanted the students and teachers to help me - it seemed that many of them were but that some were unsure. I saw a small gray dust balls on the floor and knew that it had to be dusted. The spider ran out into the hallway from underneath one door. It was headed outside underneath the door across from it. Before the spider crawled underneath, she stopped - turned her body to face me - and stood up as if to make sure I got a good look at her before she disappeared. The spider may be indicative of me chasing myself desiring greater degrees of unification.
Sunday afternoon at roughly 2:30 p.m., I opened my eyes from another experience. I was a passenger in a vehicle moving through traffic being followed overhead by a helicopter. The helicopter had a giant magnet being carried underneath it. The operator of the helicopter was attempting to attach the magnet to the top of the vehicle. It was at this point that I opened my eyes. Since then the shift I am experiencing I have been preoccupied trying to understand. The helicopter with the magnet would appear to be indicative of the perceptual clarity that appears to be increasingly advancing.
As a result of the insightful discussion me and my cellmate had a short time ago, I am able to consider the posibility that the process I speak of as developmental awareness may essentially be another way of saying that I am helping to program, in a different way, the physical being in which I exist. To be able to think of the process of transformation as programming the physical being in which I exist to operate according to the principles of divine law opens me up to much greater clarity regarding the process I am experiencing. What appears to be driving the expansion of my consciousness is studying the emotional intelligence generated by the movement regarding the number of inmates choosing to not go into the chowhall for a week. On the surface the movement makes no sense. There seems to be no just cause for the movement to occur. The only rational way for me to consider it is to discern what the deeper indication is for me in relation to my path. As I engage the emotional intelligence being generated, the insights are leading me deeper within myself.
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