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Matt
Matt One doesn't meet friends in prison. Or so I was told just like the others residing inside this lethargic purlieu. As one of those who only experience thoughts of regret, survival, and uncertainty, I...
Alone
ALONE Alas, I am alone and destined to remain so. No longer can the burning, innate longing for love, companionship and re-affirmation of my worth reverberate inside my heart and mind. Is this due to...
Insight into my future
INSIGHT INTO MY FUTURE My detainment behind these federal prison fences is coming to an end. After nearly ten years I am finally able to foresee a life elsewhere that heretofore was seemingly a fantasy...
Out of control
OUT OF CONTROL Due to incompetence, indifference and outright bias; graft and corruption run amok at FCC-Forrest City-Low. Meanwhile inmates who wish to obey the policies and rules and staff who want to simply do...
Cold days in purgatory
COLD DAYS IN PURGATORY BY B.C. Murray The divergent distractions that exists inside a prison compound are often enough to hoard away feelings of hopelessness and despair. Nothing though is cogent enough to overcome the...
A day in my life
A DAY IN MY LIFE Awakened by the brilliance of 6:00AM lights, I arise, grab my toiletries and walk down the long, stale white corridor toward the restroom. First, I must wade through a bevy...
Who benefits from prison?
WHO BENEFITS FROM PRISON? Why would anyone want. to work in a men's prison? Who rises each morning anxious to enter a desolate world void of any responsibility greater than turning a key? Or enjoy...
Confusion
Confusion Would life be worth living without confusion? What purpose would then require our rising from bed each day? Or maneuvering for legions of hours along life's jagged pathways? If content, then what would be...
Anger
Anger Anger for me is unachievable. I am though certainly no pacifist. I don't spurn anger, hostility, or even vindictiveness. Such feelings are simply beyond my reach. Some would regard me as fortunate; say the...
The depths of my own inferno
THE DEPTHS OF MY OWN INFERNO I lost my freedom long before coming to prison. Although it took actually coming here to realize it. Otherwise, I would have continued to languish in an eddy of...
Anxiety
ANXIETY Like a leaking cistern, anxiety,slowly bleeds all semblance of life from one'sA A being. As soon as a rare detente is reached, another anguishing tempest appears .atop life's mountains of Volatile, tormenting emotions pressing...
Fences
FENCES Fences: Society's artisan of salvation and refuge. Fences prohibit interruptions and distractions for those seeking freedom, fecundity. Their impregnable strands of wire offer sanctuary from the unholy, impure, and all that impugns thoughts and...
Prison's most contented
Prison's Most Contented While most inmates on a prison compound struggle with low self-esteem, depression and anxiety, it is awe-inspiring how contented openly gay men appear. In an environment presumed to be unembracing and even...
The hope of an aging man
THE HOPE OF AN AGING MAN It is official: I look like my grandfather. A long, vehement stare at my fifty-eight year old reflection confirms it. I am no longer the young, hubristic, overambitious sen1...
Numbness is all I desire
Numbness is all I desire. is that too much for a man to ask? To be comfortably numb just like the Pink Floyd song says. One would think that after seven years, almost eight, I...Loading...
